Youre not the one in control here. - When I Grow Up

Youre not the one in control here. - When I Grow Up I inadvertently took a 6 week break from journaling. I first told myself I had nothing to write. Then I told myself that I didnt have the time. Then I told myself that Id never have my lettering look the way I wanted it to, so why bother? But then I had things to say that I forgot to write down, and I regretted them being gone forever. And then I made the choice to turn the TV off early and tell Luke  that I wanted to journal before bed. And then I made the drawing above, and looked at my past art journal entries, and I realized Im more of an artist than I give myself credit for. My lettering and drawing isnt perfect and might not be pin-worthy, but its mine and it represents me. Thats what matters to me now, and hopefully always. For the first time in weeks, I opened up my Sketchnote Handbook and worked on an exercise where I had to draw kitchen items. So what that my blender looks like a teapot on a stand? My measuring spoons and rolling pin were pretty good. And if I keep practicing, they will only get better. So yeah, Im not the one in control here. I personally need to work on letting go and offering up my goals, wishes, challenges and frustrations to the Universe instead of forcing myself into the drivers seat each and every minute of the journey. And then just keep showing up. I did that recently with purchasing a home. We heard nightmare stories about the city were moving to, with bidding wars on every house and some going for up to $125K over asking. As we went to our first round of Open Houses, I turned to Luke and said, Im opening this whole process up to the Universe. We can only control the house(s) we bid on, and what we offer. Everything else the amount of offers coming in on the house we want, the home we wind up getting, how much time therell be between closings thats for the Universe to decide. I raised my hands and made him say it with me: We offer it up! Its not a done deal yet, and Im knocking wood saying it, but buying that house was the easiest thing weve done in years. Now, Im sure: You can control what you can control quitting your job, launching your biz, getting back to your art, making time to practice whatever you need to practice but after that, you are not in control here. And actually, its a really nice place to be. What  do you need to regain control of, and what do you need to let go of? Leave it in the comments and we can work through it together!